Stepdad's threat turned me on - how can I manage the feelings?

[Pinkpanties]

Help, I need some advice quick!!

I felt sexually aroused after my step-dad threatened to smack my bottom with a paddle. I'm nearly 15 and think I'm too old to be paddled, and although it hasn’t happened that often, he thinks nothing of smacking me with it.

He’s quite a bit younger than my mum and pretty good looking. However, when my mum met him I despised him for a long time. But recently I’ve been looking at him kinda different.

It all sort of exploded a couple of weeks ago and during an argument I was having with my mum, he slapped me hard on my bum and said if I didn’t put a lid on it, he take me upstairs and paddle my bottom. This sent a shiver right through me, all the way to my groin. I went bright red and could feel myself quivering with excitement and anticipation. I was so turned on it felt like I’d wet my pants.


I managed to walk away without getting spanked but I can’t help wishing he’d gone through with it. I’ve hated the paddlings I’ve had from him in the past and I don’t understand what’s changed. I’m so embarrassed and horrified about the feelings. It’s not like I fancy him (I’ve got a boyfriend) that would be weird, but recently I’ve been fantasising about him spanking me with the paddle and doing other well ..you know erm ..things. I think I’ve got a crush on him now.

I feel really bad, I can’t talk to my mum about it or even my friends at school, but the feelings won’t go away. What should I do? Will the feelings about him go away? I feel trapped and can't stop thinking about him. The thought of him paddling me makes me go weak at the knees.

Thanks

Em x

[Kd.]

I really don't know if this is a joke... but eh.. That's a little weird. You need to get over him. Make sure you stay away from him. Eh I don't know what else.

[BoYkA]

To start with if something was to happen between you and your step dad, then he would end up in jail. would you do this to your mum? its your mums other half and you want a piece of him, wow thats just messed up. why would you even think of doing this to your mum. breaking up a good relationship is wrong, and even worse being your mum, what you dont love your mum???
also your step dad has no right to hit you on the ass, its frigging dumb. if this thread is no joke then you need to get this feeling out of ya head, and work on your own relationship. remembers its just advice, we are not trained professionals. good luck.