i need some major help...

**ener15** · 09-06-2008, 04:32 AM

i need some major help. see, i was once a suicidal and went through this... this really hard program to get out, and then had to go to a day program because i had had major family and friends and self issues. i used to cut and drink, and now when it is almost the end of the year and i thought all of this was over, more rumors r starting up. i had had two plans. to take pills to kill myself or to shoot myself with my dad's gun. now, i am a lot happier then i was. but now, people r asking me all ovr again and people r thinking i either tried to hang myself, had a plan to hang myself, and some people even think i tried to slit my wrist or my throat. and i only know one friend had known because she visited me in the hospital. everyone is calling me emo and suicidal and acting all... weird. they think i am crazy(not my friends) and a bunch of then keep acting sympathetic, telling me not to kill myself or avoiding and teasing me about it. and there are some backstabbers who keep talking about me and being suicidal, saying i want to kill myself just because our school basketball team would loose a game, and the season is ovr! so, i dont know what to do, and now my friends r becoming majorly concerned for me ,and checking everyday to make sure i am not cutting, drinking, or trying to starve myself. what should i do? :noidea:.

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**Inspirational** · 09-06-2008, 05:16 AM

Be yourself, forget what they are saying . . .you know it's not true right?? so why listen to those fools . . . .they are only trying to bring you down or make you belevie what you truly know is not true.

Be your cute self, live a life of happiness and eventually they will shutup b/c there won't be any evidience to show your suicidal or crazy as they say.

It's all up to you, stand stong and forget what they say . . .I know it can be hard. When I was in highschool everyone made fun of me and hit/beat me all the time . . . .eventually they gave up b/c I never broke down

**ener15** · 09-06-2008, 05:20 AM

alright. thankyou. i will try. its just so hard when u have a bunch of people asking everyday and teasing everyday. what about my friends? i mean, i dont want to hurt thier feelings, but they r really getting to me on this...

**Inspirational** · 09-06-2008, 05:27 AM

[quote name='ener15']alright. thankyou. i will try. its just so hard when u have a bunch of people asking everyday and teasing everyday. what about my friends? i mean, i dont want to hurt thier feelings, but they r really getting to me on this...[/QUOTE]

I think the least of your worries should be if your friends get mad or not . . . they are provoking you pretty much and if they are not listening then there is not other way . . . .they just have to realize that you are ok and fine. It's going to take time for it to pass so just hang in . . . .try sitting your friends down and explaining to them everything . . . if they refuse to help you/be there for you when you need support . . . then maybe they are not your real friends and you need new ones . . . it hurts I know

**ener15** · 09-06-2008, 06:00 AM

yes, it hurts. most of my friends have been my friends since pre-school. but it is good advice. i just.. i put my friends through such a difficult time, most of them. and i feel guilty. and i tell them i am fine when i really am. i... and when i am depressed at school, they try to perk me up and dont stop. and i dont want to hurt their feelings. i do suffer from clynical depression, and it is so hard to have them on me. but i need friends. i have no idea what to do... it is good advice too that u gave me.

**Inspirational** · 09-06-2008, 08:04 AM

[quote name='ener15']yes, it hurts. most of my friends have been my friends since pre-school. but it is good advice. i just.. i put my friends through such a difficult time, most of them. and i feel guilty. and i tell them i am fine when i really am. i... and when i am depressed at school, they try to perk me up and dont stop. and i dont want to hurt their feelings. i do suffer from clynical depression, and it is so hard to have them on me. but i need friends. i have no idea what to do... it is good advice too that u gave me.[/QUOTE]

I know, it's a tough spot you're in, maybe find a time outside of school, get them all together and tell them like it is . . . I think once you have thier attention they will be more understanding . . . explain to them your life and how you feel . . . maybe then they can take care of you as friends should . . .