It was more of a rant of something recent. Just something to get some thoughts out.



















Giggling in the past



I didn’t know before



The dreaded day that I never knew would come



She’d do anything for me



She did everything for me



This is life



[[People are mere puppets until they figure out how to live]]







You were a bitch to everyone



[[but me]]



You were selfish and stingy to everyone



[[but got me everything I wanted]]



You never spoiled anyone ever



[[but you always spoiled me]]



You never got the chance to watch your children grow up



[[but you had me]]







I didn’t realize



She was slowly dying



I know it though



But I knew it was nature



Watching her forget



Asking the same question over and over



I wish she would do that again



I wish she’d just remember me







If you were given a choice



Would you pull the plug or watch her suffer?



Keep telling yourself you want her here



I know what she’d want



I have to be strong



I have to pull the plug



Can’t you see that I have to



You can’t revive her like this



You can’t let her live like this



[[Would you want to live on unicorn blood?]]







The worse part of knowing you…



I never got to say goodbye



I can’t say goodbye now or ever



You’re not there



Physically…but mentally you left me



[[You can’t imagine the tears streaming down]]







I look down at your paper skin



As your heart beats frantically trying



You don’t even know where you are



I stare into your eyes searching for you



You look back at me blankly



You can’t even remember me



Tears stream as I run as far as I can







Your heart is going to fail



I wouldn’t dare revive you



I know you wouldn’t want to remain a veggie



Keeping you here isn’t doing anyone good



This is one of the hardest things for someone to do



To tell someone to not revive their loved one if their heart stops



[[this is my life]]