Why do I feel so good when my mom disciplines me? Like everytime she tells me to do something and like uses her parenting skills it feels really weird I feel so weird and I can't identify what it is which bothers me.

It's like: for instance,
Well get into a fight and she'll tell at me to go to my room and Ill like (this one time) yell back FINE! And slam my door but Im mad but I feel so good it's like In my chest my heart beats

I don't like feeling some way and not understanding it. So what is it?

I don't want her to ever know I feel this way tho

Idk why