I'm not okay. I hate myself i hate that i feel like im screwed up so many bad things have happened in my life but i cant cry. i literally was told it was my fault my bio mom started meth again. she told me that on my 16th birthday instead of saying happy birthday son. and i couldn't cry. i feel screwed up cuz there are so many moments that i should be crying but i cant. i just cant do it anymore i feel alone i feel like a freak because all these depressed people say they cry all the time and i cant. i cant shed a tear. i debate my every emotion because i feel like im just a lie my feelings are fake and its just me trying to feel or faking and idk what to do anymore