Whats wrong with me??

**endoflife55** · 08-11-2006, 09:59 PM

ive been depressed for about 3 monthes now and it seems like when stuff is lookin up it falls back down. It was fine till i asked the girl i loved with all my heart out and she told me she likes another guy. Then my stepdad startin tryin to abuse my mom and i got sent to boot camp for 4 weeks cause i beat him up when he called my mom a ******.Now i cant get the one thing i want- a girlfriend. i love this girl but she wont even give me a chance. ive thought about killin myself so many times and i never sleep at night cause im thinkin bout her or my life. please help me.

**wavedy** · 10-11-2006, 01:24 AM

Hmmm, your a complicated young chap. It's hard to give advice about family members but I'll bet if you had have done nothing about your stepdad's behaviour that you would be kicking yourself more about it now. I say that cos I see you would do anything for her, good on you for trying to protect her....in saying that, maybe don't beat the guy up if there is a next time huh Thumbsup

I know that some men try to control women in different ways and perhaps if your mum was going outside of her usual boundaries he might have got scarred. Maybe next time you could let him know his weakness in words. A strong man will support his female loved ones, you do, so please don't see yourself as weak due to what's happeneing around you cos really you have a good strength there.

This girl your in love with, I guess I can't say anything other than if she isn't intrested in you then seek elsewhere and don't use your energy on thinking about what could be.

One thing I will tell you about women though ......... If we do have even a small intrest in a guy and he decides to be with another girl or just seems like he couldn't care anymore if she likes him or not, we pay more attention to him. Did I explain that clearly? Make out you don't want her anymore, you should still be nice to her, but don't take any bait she throws to you until she decides she wants to give you a go after all. Be careful not to be left hanging on a line though, don't let her do the "get him close but don't give him more" thing. That's just cruel for you. But also, if you collect your confidence again, have a good cry about everything and stand back up to face the world again I'm sure you will find that there are other women around you with an intrest in you. You won't know until then.

Please don't kill yourself. Most people have alot more determination inside of them than they realise. Give yourself a reason to live, get a new intrest or hobby perhaps. If I hear "endoflife55" died in the papers mate, LOOK OUT. gg111 And if you leave your mum .... need I say more? She would never recover from that.

Also. I don't know how religeous you are but I always hear that God will not throw to you what he thinks you can't handle.

Also, what doesn't kill us will make us stronger. And lets face it, if God thought your time was up, he would have already taken you.

If I'm on the wrong track here please let me know. I'm a bit tired right now so I might be talking too much and not be on the right train line, if you know what I mean.

Be happy.

**1BlondeAngel** · 24-04-2007, 07:18 PM

ive thought about killin myself

omg

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**Slider** · 24-04-2007, 10:28 PM

Originally Posted by endoflife55

ive been depressed for about 3 monthes now and it seems like when stuff is lookin up it falls back down. It was fine till i asked the girl i loved with all my heart out and she told me she likes another guy. Then my stepdad startin tryin to abuse my mom and i got sent to boot camp for 4 weeks cause i beat him up when he called my mom a ******.Now i cant get the one thing i want- a girlfriend. i love this girl but she wont even give me a chance. ive thought about killin myself so many times and i never sleep at night cause im thinkin bout her or my life. please help me.

killing urself wont help u get a girlfriend, or help ur chances with this girl.